Give me a break!

I feel like the ying and yang thing from yesterday is going a bit far. I seem to go from one very good day (like yesterday, throwing positive energy out into the world), to one bad day. Which of course, is today.

There is a little bit of evil in my life at the moment. It is at work so I can’t really go into it too much. We have all experienced when there is that one person in our life, who we may or may not have the option to get rid of, who poisons everyone and everything else with their negativity, laziness and just general rude nature.

The exchange I have had with this person today has left me physically shaking with anger, feeling a little sick and generally angry. It isn’t even lunch time but I am serious need of some down time and a beer would go down nicely (but it isn’t even one o’clock).

Then I started writing this post and another thought came into my mind, how sad a life must this person live to act like this all the time. The way I am feeling right now, maybe they feel like that all the time. That’s a truly horrible thought.

I cannot make things better. This person has made their own bed and they continue to ‘bite the hand that feeds them’. All I can do is try to tolerate them and control my own feelings.

#fmsphotoaday is ‘one o’clock’. Believe me I am yearning for it:

Please hurry up one' o clock!

Please hurry up one’ o clock!

I cannot cope with feeling like this. I cannot cope doing someone else’s work all the time. I cannot cope with nothing going my way. Please, please, please let something change.

Yesterday was plain awful

Annie was one of my favourite musicals as a child.  I knew it word for word, had the soundtrack and sang and danced my way around the house (often, I’m sure, annoying my Mother).

Yesterday I had some bad news.  Before Christmas I had applied for an apartment to rent (in Sydney, the rental market is pretty tough, if you’re a single female with a large dog and limited budget, it’s even tougher).  I was hoping for good news.  I found out, by looking on the real estate agent’s website that they had leased the apartment to someone else.  No email or phone call to let me know.  Nothing.  This follows them calling my manager to ask details about my salary and to confirm my job was secure.  Details I don’t really want to give to just anyone.  They received the best reference in the world and still, they gave the house to someone else.  It made me angry (that they hadn’t bothered to contact me).  Then it made me sad.

Today’s #fmsphotoaday is “heart”.  When I heard the news that I didn’t have ‘my’ house, my heart broke a little bit. 

One black, one red.  One bad, one good?

One black, one red. One bad, one good?

But then, I remembered two things:

  1. This is my year.  I will not let these things get to me.
  2. As Annie and Daddy Warbucks sing in the final song, “Yesterday was plain awful, you can say that again.  Yesterday was plain awful, but that’s, not now, that’s then.”

Then, just when I was feeling better I read about someone else who was suffering from a broken heart. A heart far more broken than mine. After reading Cilla and Jessie’s story, I held my own fourteen year old puppy a little closer and said a little prayer for Cilla’s owner, Jodie and companion Jessie.

Here’s to 2013 bringing some better news (and a bit of luck) our way.  Our paths may be stormy but there must be sunshine ahead.

Don't confuse your path with your destination.  Just because it's stormy now doesn't mean that you aren't headed for sunshine.

Don’t confuse your path with your destination. Just because it’s stormy now doesn’t mean that you aren’t headed for sunshine.